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Alhamdulillah..

Praise be to Allah..the most merciful.

ramblings

well, 

whatta peaceful night tonite.

after working for 8 saturdays in a row, finally, i  hereby declare myself, FREE this weekend! hmm..just yet. coz still, need to go to KL on sunday, chaperoning the students to International Book Fair in PWTC that gonna take a day full. anywaysss..it's better that way.at least, a lil getaway can cure the heart a bit.and to KL that is, which lighten up the mind coz i'm really looking forward to a lil hustle and bustle, different view of what we have in teluk intan everyday. and the fact that i haven't purchased any books yet this year, a visit to bookfair is just a savior! err..did i mention that i've come accross this B2B blog who has books & english novels as hantaran?Oooh so envious of her!!if only and only if i can have it that way..i'll sure be the happiest bride in the world!

ok since tmrw is a no working day, (well we supposed to have replacement school tmrw but we need to be the host of lodging for all netball players of the state-level competittion.so all students were released to go back home and that means no students, no school lah tmrw.hukhuk.if not, jgn haraplahhh) i am planning to stay awake longer tonite maybe for lil chit chatting with the mister (which we haven't had for long) and wake up a late as i can everrr in my life! (see the exclamation mark?) and i'm gonna get the mind emptied of all school miscellaneous, chilling with a cup of a tea and a chic-lit on hands, and will definitely treat it as my weekend, not yours, fellas.hukhuk.

aaandd, by my weekend, i mean, i'm gonna sit down and think and think and think of the favors for the becoming event! ish. can we go to ikea and another place mister kind-hearted?oh thank you. :P

p/s: can't wait for next week!!!

grenade

the unchecked list.

can i have a dais like this?just like this.

wordless wednesday

=..=

i used to know exactly what i want for a wedding.not a grand or dramatically special one.but just a simple, serene day, with no hush and rush.a day when i can treat everybody a simple yet delicious meal, enough to fill an empty stomach. a day when i can welcome everybody to my parents' crib, showing them the place i loved the most, my growing up place, my comfort zone. a day when nobody will celebrate not critics.a day of a fresh beginning between me and my future life companion. it's not too much to expect of a day, right?

what has been bugging me lately is i am too paranoid of what people will have to say when things are not up to their expectations. sigh

don't get me wrong people, i love shopping for weddings, what more if it's my freaking own wedding.i want beautiful dais, ruffles, scallops, with ballons and candies everywhere. i want everything in pastels, i want rainbow coloured paper lanterns, i want costumized favor bags with my handwriting on it, i want crazy pricey hantarans, i want a dais an artist would die for,i want every beautiful thing on earth.i want everything!

but, there is always a but.

i have to be rational.i have to keep my feet on earth. spending so much is not my kind of thing when it comes to a day of celebration. what more important is the days ahead. how we're gonna sail through the rough journey, of how being weekend husband and wife would cost us a fortune, of how having two families at once is kinda threatening, with hari raya coming and all.haha.okay, detect paranoid there.

hmm..what i really wish for now, is, let us have it our own way.be it a fairytale, or a nightmare, bother not.i've had enough stress at workplace so i dun need one on my wedding day.

 bridezilla mode on, NOW!

haha!okay ignore me.stress much wanrajifah, huh?

gotta go.need to google 'cara-cara memasak gulai' =..=

ok,

3 of my friends yg akan kahwin bulan 6 ni dah post rsvp kat fb.all of them are farisians.(apekah sungguh pathetic xde kwn dr sumber lain?wuwu) who are scattered around malaysia.they all rsvp awal2 sbb takot nnt nak kena timing nak post kad ke eh?btway, nnt nk kena bilang btol2 sape yg nk kena post kad sbb aku adalah kedekut setem.60 cents?kad i pon x semahal tuuu.eh kad?fuu~

so persoalannya skrg ialah perlu ke..perlu keeee..i buat mcm tu jgk skrg?kalo lmbat2 nnt xde org nk dtg ke?cam poyo je post rsvp awal2.dahla xbest sbb nnt canopies pyramid je..bukan arabian.wpon dpt scallop yg dicite2kan iaitu gray.hehe.tapi ttp xbest sbb pyramidddddd!(tetibe salahkan canopy.motif?)aaaannd, ade ke org nak dtg? hahahaha (omaigod tetibe rase kesian kat diri sendiri.wuwu)

aaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnddd skali lagi..ye, mmg xleh post lg rsvp.sbb..nnt kalo dh post rsvp, org mesti bg address..pastu nnt kena la post kad..thennnn...nk post kad pastu tetibe...kad i mane siap lagiii..design pon belommm (smbil menjeling seseoranggg) hmmmm hmmmm.

marilah kita same2 membizi yee.

anyway, sbenarnye adalah tgh tibe2 takot memikirkan outcome dais nnt sbb bridal adalah sgt kampong (tempat dirahsiekan).haha.motif?sbb saket hati dah penat2 panjat tgga pegi Renjis then tutoppp plakk.haih.boleh x mention kat bwh tu bahawasenya mereka tutop aritu?hnshh hnsshh..pastu  hari lain pegi juefaizoll bridal ponnn tutop jgk kena appoinment bagai.ewah ewah..call xdpt, tapi pastu die call blk ckp "sorrylah, i ade event dgn SNP td.the whole week i akan ade kat sane je" tahu SNP tu ape?fuuu fuuuu..baiklah, pegi jelah makeup dgn krew-krew siti nur.haliza tuhh..i redhoo..lgpon i xde duit byk2.haha.kalo byk  duit pon baik i pegi melancong ke new zealand. =..= btway, setelah pegi survey 4,5 bridals dan berase kecewa, tepakse la pegi gak ke tempat dirahsiekan itu dan booking dlm mase 5 minit.hahaha.sorrylah encik, nasib u laa..wuwuwu~pastu skrg jadik risau plakkk.haih.rase mcm nnt nak balik gantung je cadar kat blakang kerusi.ermm..yg snails tu ke..mmmm....pastu amik2 gmba xde la nmpak i burok sgt berbanding snailsss tersebot.gud idea.gud idea.  T_T

ok bye.sorilah terpakse bace post mega mengarut nih.next time i'll post a more educational one. (bajet ramai peminat.hukhuk) ah apepon, gudnitessss people!

# baru tahu, my senior syairir rupenye kahwin dgn org jepun.hohhhh gila kentang.(smbil membayangkan betapa bestnye kahwin dgn japanese dan tinggal di negara jepun.hmmm hmmmm)

ok sekian entry tanpa motif.

lil' lingling

hari ni besday adlyn ling-ling darlinggg kesayangan!

 my two years old young (pls dun grow up) baby

cikji loves u so much syg sbb menjadi peminat tegar kete myvi hitam cikji yg tidak dicuci bertahun-tahun.hehe.

dudududu

i want it as simple as it can be.like the simplest ever.

(tapi org lain semua x setuju)

grrrrr

entry emosi

it's been one hell of bad time in school nowadays.

and when i'm stressed out, i'll burst.i tend to blame everyone, and definitely, the other half will be the one who'll listen to all those.then i won't be in good mood to talk.i've been bad.i feel mad.i nag.i disagree.oversensitive. i thought nobody would understand.i thought he won't understand.i refused.i claimed.i vented all the angers like mad.

and that definitely not a good start of everything. i hate working so much.after all, i don't have a feeling to be here anymore.indifferent.that is.

time to sort out my emotional quotients. and people, pls don't be that cruel.

kerja byk2 kuat2 pon, harga barang naik jugak. economic downturn like forever. what do we get in return?nothing kan?

sorry mister.

i'm flying without wings

i haven't done anything of the preparations.

talking bout preparations, that's the thing makes me stressful right now.i am scheduled to go back home this 30th April as the cards will be ready by then, so i can fetch em all together with:

1. settle all the Legal Forms (the MOST IMPORTANT thing kalau x xboleh kawin)

2. HIV test which kalau kahwin kat kelantan, HIV test x boleh buat kat tempat lain.

3. fittingsss >.<

4. cards distributions (bg list dekat my parents & ambik the ones yg nak post to kawan2)

5. confirm bridal pasal dais&decorations

6. confirm booking caterer&canopies.

7. kemas bridal chamber (yg xde rupa bilik pengantin lagi)

8. well, hantaran decorations yg belum beli ape-ape and x buat ape2 lagi.

9. favors hunting.

10. pre-wedding.

well, it'll be exactly one month before the actual date by then.kalau x balik masa tu bila lagiiii?sape yg nak settlekan semua nih?

ish, nak settle hal kawin pun susah.x kawin kanggggg

cruel kerja vs demanding personal

so..impossible..as they may seem.you got to fight, for every dream 

coz who's to know, which one you'll let got

would have made u complete..s

pathetic post

those were the days.spot me.

hahaha.pls la wanrajifah.tolong la jgn makan byk.annoying sungguh.mcmana laa bulih jd mcm skrg ni.wuwuwu T_T

days to go:

to all men out there

ok now it feels weird, at least for me to post something like this.but hey, this is a good one i suppose.must read.must read!

Andainya lelaki tahu..
Apabila seorang perempuan jatuh cinta,
lelaki itu tidak semestinya punya segalanya
tetapi lelaki itu adalah segalanya di hatinya.

Andainya lelaki tahu..
Apabila seorang perempuan itu mengalirkan air mata,
itu bukan bermakna dia lemah,
tetapi dia sedang mencari kekuatan
untuk terus tabah menyintai lelaki itu.

Andainya lelaki tahu..
Apabila seorang perempuan marah,
memang dia tidak mampu mengawal perasaannya
tapi percayalah, itulah maknanya
dia sangat mengambil berat dan menyayangi lelaki itu.

Lihat saja pasangan yang baru bercinta, mereka jarang bergaduh.
Tetapi percayalah semakin bertambah sayang mereka pada seseorang,
semakin pula banyak pertelingkahan yang berlaku.

Andainya lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan bercakap banyak,
dia tidak pernah bermaksud untuk membuat anda rimas,
tapi dia mahu lelaki mengenalinya dengan lebih dekat.

Andainya lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan berkata dia mahu anda berubah,
itu bukan bermakna dia tidak mahu menerima anda seadanya,
tetapi dia mahu menjadikan anda lebih baik,
bukan untuk dirinya,
tetapi untuk masa depan anda.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan cemburu dan tidak percayakan anda,
bukan bermakna dia tidak sayang..
tetapi dia terlalu sayangkan anda
dan masih menganggap anda anak kecil
yang masih memerlukan sepenuh perhatian.

Kadang2 dia terlalu risau sekiranya terlalu percaya,
anda akan mengkhianati kepercayaan yang diberi.
Naluri keibuannya sangat kuat.
Dia hanya mahukan yang terbaik untuk anda.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan merajuk,
jangan kata dia mengada-ngada.
Dia bukannya mahu dipujuk dengan wang ringgit
atau hadiah sedozen,
tetapi cukup dengan perhatian
yang boleh buat perempuan rasa dihargai.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan jarang mengatakan ‘i love u’,
itu tidak bermaksud dia tidak menyintai
tetapi dia mahu lelaki itu merasai sendiri cintanya,
bukan hanya hadir dari kata-kata
tetapi juga melalui bahasa tubuhnya.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan kata dia rindu sama kamu,
dia benar-benar maksudkannya.
Apabila berjauhan, bayanganmu akan sentiasa bermain di mata.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan kata lelaki lain itu lebih baik dari kamu,
jangan percaya kata-katanya
kerana dia hanya mahu menguji kamu.
Dia mahu melihat sejauh mana kamu sanggup menjadi yang terbaik di matanya.
Walaupun sebenarnya memang kamulah yang terbaik di hatinya.

Selagi dia dengan kamu, percayalah,
walaupun perempuan menganggap masih ramai lagi yang lebih baik di matanya
tetapi di hatinya, kamu tetap yang terbaik.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan menjadi degil,
dia bukan bermaksud untuk menjadi degil
tapi dia mahu melihat
sejauh mana lelaki itu mampu bersabar dengan kerenahnya.

Percayalah, hati perempuan itu sangat lembut.
Andai kena caranya,
jangan terkejut kalau akhirnya dia menukar fikirannya dalam masa sesaat.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan berkata,
“tolong tinggalkan saya!”,
dia tidak bermaksud menyuruh anda pergi selamanya.
Dia hanya mahu menenangkan fikirannya sebentar saja.

Apabila dia kembali tenang,
percayalah dia akan mencari anda semula.
Itu tandanya dia benar-benar menyintai anda.
Perempuan sukar untuk mengawal perasaan.
Dia terlalu emosional.
Tapi dialah yang paling menyayangi anda
dan sangat sensitif dengan perubahan pada diri anda.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Sememangnya Allah menciptakan lelaki dan perempuan itu
dengan perbezaan yang tersendiri.
Tetapi sekiranya mereka saling memahami,
mereka akan saling melengkapi dan menyempurnakan.

Perempuan itu diciptakan oleh Allah indah sekali.
Di sebalik air matanya,
tersimpan seribu satu kekuatan
yang bakal menjadikan seorang lelaki itu merasa selamat bersamanya.

Biarpun zahirnya perempuan itu tampak lemah
tapi dia punya kekuatan tersendiri
yang bisa menggoncang dunia
dan mungkin bisa pula membuat lelaki menjadi lemah kerananya.

Jadi hargailah kehadiran seorang perempuan dalam hidup anda
kerana dia didatangkan bukan dengan kelemahan sahaja
tetapi dia juga ada kekuatan untuk menyokong anda
dan membuatkan hidup anda lebih sempurna.
Dialah yang bakal menjadi perempuan bekerjaya, isteri juga ibu
yang terbaik untuk anak2 anda.

taken from a friend's facebook.thanks efi!

this one is for the girls

i want rainbows in the rain
i want everything under the sun
i want to be as happy as one can be
i want friends.i want buddies.i want my girls.
now, that's what i really want.the teslians girls

feels like it's just yesterday we're apart.time has changed us, a lot, i gotta admit.it was so much fun whenever i was with u guys.still remember the birthday parties?okay not really party, but we tried our best to make surprises on each of us' birthday, right?we had it at the rented home, at mcD, kedai lilin (my favvy!), darul ehsan,anywhere!and, remember the day a morning class was cancelled, suria and cyeda made a run to the library for the sake of checking 'now showing' in the net?yes, we caught nine yards at Jusco bukit raja.well, i have forgotten what the story was about but still remember how we went there by a cab and of course the mall has just opened and that means we're early birds we got discounts on the tixs.

and the time nala suggested nandos for lunch me&lyd escaped a class, hop into the 70cents bus heading to SACC mall.aaand, remember kak marini and her merc?remember heading to kedai kopi tasik shah alam with four of us crammed in at the back seat?the midnight in Sunway pyramid watching charlie and the chocolate factory?remember how we crossed the highway for King-kong?

have u guys still remember hunting for educational CD as instructed by Miss Saliza?speaking of which kita selalu ponteng kelas dia sbb the night before xtdo sbb buat ape ntah.and what subject was that yg kita kena compile newspaper cuttings then sggop beli kertas double A mahal2 sbb nk suroh tebal and dpt markah byk?Adzura.ellier's class?miss J?my all time favvy mr.john greig?and oh, kieran.johnston for sure!well, shakespeare with his utmost fan uhdaya.banu..mdm.rosalind with her asian literature?mr.mahadi's creative writing class?oh well, mdm.salina and syntax!i ilove the sentence treess so much!and definitely other lecturers whom we'd just realized we love them once we stepped out from the front gate.

oh please dun remind me of our ramadhans there.the bazaar was just across the lane and there was time we're too busy with the ahem ahem thesis that our night was our day, our day was our night.hahah!you know, after iftar, everybody was asleep like sleeping soundly and got up just at 10pm to continue with neverending assignments and thesis and got back to sleep only after subuh?and how our room (me,cyeda n banj's) was midnite and urs (lyd,nala,suria's) was daylight?oh oh remember still the cat from the house next door?how we took turn to clean its poops in our balcony?hahahahahaha.

we've been thru so many dramas.(anyways baru teringat scene lidya hampir pengsan selepas menderma darah dan mengetuk pintu dgn lemah longlai sekali).ok, so many many many dramas.the good ones.the bittersweet ones.

but i wanna revisit those days :(

it's so boring to have a carrier.a carrier but no friends.money without friends.if only..if only..