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Ya Allah..permudahkanlah urusanku..

back to kelantan, for good.

well, received a good news (sort of) last thursday, Nov 10th. my application to get transferred to Kelantan is approved and now, i'm moving back to my hometown, for good!

after only three years of teaching, this news is absolutely unexpected. tell you, i'm nervous inside out.just hoping and praying things will turn out well at least.

wish me luck, coz i surely need a bunch of em!

big bad wolf sale

well..hey..good to be here again.hmm hmm

okay, how do i start..where should i start..mm..

i just came back from various places.and the proudest achievement i have done this year is attending "The Big Bad Wolf SALE!"

thanks hubs. u have been so supportive, and having a husband to hold the box for u is really a blessing :-)

anndd..can't wait for our holiday this weekend!

a year!

today marks the first year after our very own engagement!

raya 2011

first raya as husband and wife!

.

if a man wants a girl to be an angel in his life..he must first create a heaven for her to stay..

- anonymous

stories later!

 

my so-called birthday cake =)

mish

 T_______________T

Y_____Y

huaarghh.

nak makan nasik belauk ayam bakar dpn rumah~!

arghh!!arghh!!!

two months

today marks the 2nd month of our marriage.

ahh..how time flies.

and i'm blissfully happy. hope he feels the same too..

:)

july escapade

we're going to fast tmrw, 1st Ramadan 1432 hjr, which falls on 1st August 2011.

and tmrw gonna be my first Ramadan as a wife. wife? ha.anyways, nothing's gonna change  really coz we're hundred miles apart. good side is, i dun have to wake up preparing meal for sahur. hehe. but the bad side is of course la, iftar alone, which is really saddening. huhu.

and oh, we had a great weekend!

hubs arrived late that Friday morning but thanx Allah it was raining, so no weekly assembly at 7.15 as usual. so i fetched hubs from the bus station, sneaked into the hostel with him as all students have gone to school by that time, and prepared him breakfast while he was performing solat. i made mac&cheese and a mug of coffee, salam and kissed him goodbyee before making my way to school! i felt like dreaming!hehe

had about an hour gap before another class so i walked back to the hostel to check on him, as dah bgn ke belum, or nak tambah lagi makan.  turned up we had another kind of cheese weezy moment instead of the mac&cheese and i loved it! kekeke.thanx hubs :)

i went back to school, went into classes and at 12:20 pm i found myself already at the thumb print kiosk.haha sungguh x sabar nak balik when we have loved one waiting at home, kan? aaannnd, coming home to glittery mopped floor is definitely dream of heaven! oh hubs, u treated me like a princess, how can i repay u for all these? now i know i am truly blessed, with a husband sent from heaven, I really praise Allah for this. i wish i can be the best wife for him, i am working for it, InsyaAllah, so that our marriage is always happy and full of blessings!

and to add sugar on top of the cake, hubs cooked nasi goreng for lunch, which was delicious!believe me, husband's cooking can  never taste bad.at least we would be grinning while eating.heheh. i grilled one sausage for him, sprinkled with black pepper together with jalapeno cheese. we served it nicely and had fun taking pics.haha.cooking together in the kitchen was so fun. if he is willing to accompany me everytime i cook, i will definitely cook hundred times daily! so happy to see him splurging on home-cooked meal. and everytime he took second helping, i wish he would add one more.hehe.how i wish he can eat more and i can eat less. haha -,,-

soon after prayer that afternoon we made our way to shah alam. this time we took the teluk intan-kuala selangor-klang route. i dunno what's hubs opinion about this route but we safely arrived at 5 pm at The Palma Hotel Shah Alam. checked in, resting, before going out again at 6.30. we went to midvalley megamall that night. i had no idea hubs would offer me to go there coz i thot he must be tired and you know, we would only go for a stroll at nearby shopping complex. but the traffic was so bad. it took us about 1 hr and a half before we reaching midvalley megamall and to find a parking spot was disastrous. it was full packed, and only after not less than 5 rounds  we finally found one! we had no idea where to dine in plus the clock was ticking so fast, we had to just settle with chicken rice shop. haha. funny. i was soo hungry i could die so chicken rice shop pon chicken rice shop lah.hukhuk.

we bought set of irresistible notebooks at MPH! and toothbrush at guardian. haha. that's all what we got ourselves that night.haha. anyways, it's not the materials that counts. time spent with him is like a golden chance i not would want to miss any second of it. you know, to have the chance to stare into his eyes, or even to admire his face secretly when he's not looking..is a total bliss.

it was raining the next morning we both fell asleep till 9.30! woke up, went to the cafe downstairs for breakfast buffet, came back to the room, spent some lovey dovey time and lastly packed our things for check-out. went to jusco bukit tinggi, bought this and that, and oh, thanks hubs for the pink adidas shopping bag! hehe. i bought him 2 t-shirts in ocean blue and green but dunno if he would wear it coz he kinda disapprove of me buying them. hukhuk. but i wanna buy him at least a thing and i want him to have many shirts. okay that's my excuse so far. hehe.

had a quick journey home, we had to rush because we needed to go to his brother's house in Kg, Gajah. but upon reaching teluk intan, his brother called saying he and his wife were coming to teluk intan. so we just stopped at Masjid Taqwa for prayer, went to petronas to buy some drinks and pooff off to my room at the hostel. i prepared spagetthi bolognaise and mac&cheese, ice creams, cupcakes and chocolates for them. served the food, they arrived, perform prayers, had meals, and off again to the bus station as hubs gonna have a ride to the hometown that night.

i know, it's quite cheesy to say how much i love him again and again, but as a matter of fact, i am truly blessed to have a husband like him. he's my pillar of strength, my happiness, my day and my night. he did a lot to make me happy, and of course, played the best role as a husband. love u hubster!

hoho

and it was soon after thumb-printing myself into school today we received the news.

a father of a student has made a report to  J.p.En in accordance of his child's well-being in the school. the said father claimed that two teachers has offended his child by 'sindiran', that's his exact word. and who's the teacher? well people, it's me..yes, it's me.-_-"

little did i know telling a student to go into class is considered crime nowadays.  went to the hostel's sickbay just to make sure she's there,where she was hiding while playing truant, telling her to go into class, well, for her sake of future, is none of the father's concern. his sole concern is the words like, "kamu x sayang masa depan ke?" which he considers as sarcasm. Amagad. really, u wanna know what sarcasm is? 

sarcasm is, when u, funny people, come interfering with others' lives without enough information..and..well, without enough education, so u would be laughed at.that's sarcasm. i pity you father, coz you know, satisfaction is not only about blaming others, but it is too, found in acceptance of our fault. i was like, oh ok, so u reported.so what's next?what do you want exactly?so the people can put a sentence on my career? to remind me not to put sarcastic words towards my students anymore? i dunno. but i don't consider my words as sarcasm. it comes purely from the heart of a teacher, who eagerly wants to see changes in her student.change to the better.

sigh.

in case u don't know pakcik, i have been a student myself. and today, ten years after, i believe i would be a better person if my teacher scolded me enough. i ain't an obedient child wholly i tell u. i was rebellious. i rebelled when my father forced me to enter that boarding school. i didn't study well.i played truant too.a series of made-believe headache.or stomachache. but nobody saved me.nobody told me to wake up and learn. nobody reminded me in a stricter tone.so here i am now. a pitiful teacher in a gov school. it's saddening, coz i used to believe i have a brain of a doctor.or maybe an astronaut.haha.okay lets get serious.

well father, please, let us shape ur child to be a better person.no words can kill ur child, not even killing her spirit,coz that will only make the child wake up to a brighter day.

learning is a gift, even when pain is your teacher.

i dunno what charge will they put on me.but truthfully, i am hurt.

p/s: this entry is not written purposely for anybody.so x payah nak terasa-terasa.this is a free country so peace!

Y_____Y

weekend was eventful,

coz i have you!

oh cepatla Jumaat lagi..selasa rabu khamis, sile berambus dengan segera!!huahuahua.

i love u more and more every passing day.

=..=

whatta boring night.and tiring too.huargh

and now listening to hubs playing guitar and singing his heart out over the phone.hukhuk.
 

Friday come fast please please!

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July 1st, 2011-Jetty to Pulau Orang Utan, Bukit Merah Laketown Resort

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it's been a while..

i wonder what's been keeping me from pouring my crappy thoughts here but well, life has been quite hectic recently i must admit. hmm hmm..so here's some recent updates.

went to penang the previous weekend. had a day off on Friday due to Malam Genre Seni whatsoever that happened the night before.so woohoo, a kind of blessing for LDR couple like us! spent the weekend excellently.ngehngeh ;p i also had my first experience of walloping down delicious Pasembur at Padang Kota, and ferry ride from the island to main land. tiring weekend, but obviously interesting! hubs pampered me with stacks of magazines of my choice which i was overjoyed (ha ha ha see, i am so easy to please)

then i walk through the week with no mood at all until it was announced that ppd allowed us to take a day off on the following monday (due to larian 1 malaysia) which made me run to the bus station to get the tickets for kota bharu! at first hubs planned to come over to teluk intan for the weekend again but since i would be free on sundays and mondays i think it would be better to spend the days with him in kota bharu.and, honestly, i miss home so much plus those lil rascals kept asking when would cikji comes back.he he..danial has grown so fast, as in, soo 'panjangg', couldn't believe my eyes he has outgrown all the carters rompers!tsk tsk.

well, what an experience it was to wake up early preparing breakfast for hubs, iron pressed his shirts and trousers for works, and having meals together in my parent's kitchen! i prepared everything for him at my home but when we were at my in-laws, my MIL prepared everything.hu hu.woke up to breakfast spread ready on the table was such a blessing! tp segannn gler tp nk buat mcmane, it takes time to adjust with the timings and all.and i am sure u guys should also have this kind of 'x reti nak buat ape bila berada di rumah org lain' right?hu..hope i will get over that quickly so i can stay comfortably there. not that i am uncomfortable now but i have this clueless syndrome which takot ape yg kita buat tu nmpak pelik dan x org lain x penah buat mcm tu.example, sitting on a chair which org lain x kan duduk except certain people ke..ha..bukan ke nmpak pelik nnt?hu hu hu..so far, i am happy coz i am blessed with wonderful in-laws including sporting younger sisters =)

so here i am now, took the bus to teluk intan on Tuesday night, waved goodbye to the hubster and came back to reality. he's not coming over this weekend coz i will be on warden's duty on Friday and have to bring PBSM students to SMART  on Saturday coz there's a competition we need to be the emergency unit committee. so no free & personal time for the weekend.huhu.but he's gonna be here on 22nd morning!

8 days to go but seriously, it feels like 8 years T_T

=)

hub's belated birthday celebration @ theobroma chocolate lounge the curve, 25th June 2011.my birthday will be in Ramadhan, so guess celebrate buka puasa kat kedai kristal di teluk intan sajalah T____________T

annoyed

dammit x boleh apply leave Friday Monday plak dahh.mcm2 hal la.shesshhhh!

his birthday

for the birthday boy!

it's hubster's birthday today and i guess i was the first person who wished him last night (kan?huhu) .he was already fast asleep at 11.30, after forcing me to read him some bedtime-stories.(yes, seriously) and i read him Adrian Mole novel..hukhuk. as of today, to surprise him, i contacted the cupcake baker  to order a set of customized cupcakes. but i think the instruction wasn't really clear so she came out with only this. huhu.nevermind, i was satisfied coz my plan to surprise him succeed. to make it more fun, the cuppies were finished in a split second by his officemates.hahah.daserr.

anyways, 

happy birthday hubster.may all the good things come ur way,semoga dimurahkan rezeki dan dilimpahi rahmat selalu.

can't wait to see u tmrw!

the reception

:)

the "welcome" bunting - idea by me, printed by Tree Image Advertising

omg.seriously, did this happen? :P

with his Husm colleagues =)

his bestfriend hafeez as bestman, my bestie pia as bridesmaid

and

his Bff zairie in the middle

=)

with my Faris-petra girlsss

a Phd student, a Uitm lecturer and a Dell engineer.

see who's the loser here

T_T

with his cousin kak mie and aunt mokda.and the kids damia & wafiq =)

1,2,3 cheese!!

the invitation

the invi card. the simplest one u can find in the catalogue.hehe.but this one isn't from the catalogue.tehee.since we have the chance of printing em at hubster's office, Tree Image Advertising (promote2) which i can have my own design.tp last turnout as simple as this.haha.anyways, i am more than satisfied.this is just the way i want it.no lovey-dovey-with-pictures cards please! =)

p/s: have u seen Prince William & Kate Middleton's wedding invi card?

not yet weekend

Friday comes again..and as usual, the week is not over yet.still, early in the morning tmrw i have to get up early, riding on a bus together with the students heading to Kalumpang Resort and Training centre in Hulu Selangor.yes, u read me right.heading to a resort.but with the students?hmm.that surely is not a holiday plan, but we're having an English camp there instead.

there goes my weekend.

hmm.this week went smoothly except of i couldn't get the internet line at school.wonder why.the first day after the holiday was kinda embarrassing.hehe.i carried the new hbag with me, tghtr with boxes of hersheys kisses for everyone as the favors of my recent reception.i was blushing all the way long.people greeted me with the cliche line 'selamat pengantin baru' and i couldn't even stop grinning. haha.what an experience was that.haha.

got few more presents from kak t, the english panel and also azie.love the pressies so much!and yes, the other day received one more from kak anita and today, two other pressies from kelab guru dan kakitangan smtti and asrama smtti.think that should be all.how embarrassed i was to receive the present from mr.principle during the farewell party.oh.won't repeat that in the future, seriously.huhu.

alright, think that's all for now.gonna update more with the reception stories, well, u know, for the sake of keeping memories alive. =)

mr.hubster, i know you're reading this.so, hi!!=)

LDR

after a series of traveling around perak, hubster is finally away.hmm.since sunday night actually.and i am left alone again here.but dun wanna be sad sad coz that will worry him.hu.LDR sucks.hate it.

i've always thought that things gonna be ok to be separated from each other coz we've been in this kind of situation since the first time we met.and that has been 6 years. however, never crossed my mind that it is going to be different this time.it feels different.to be someone's wifey but at the same time you go back to the same empty room as your single days.bet he would feel the same to.coming back from work to his family, without someone called wifey to prepare him breakfast, dinner and even to iron his work clothes.

you know how guilty i feel.

but oh demm.there's work to be done over the weekend.so guess need to add 8 more days on the schedule. T_T

:)

 =.=

 waiting

 breakfast

waiting again.hehe

hmm

is currently at orient star resort lumut with mr.hubster :)

and having dinner at the cafe while watching final game FA cup.a die hard red warrior fan himself, he absolutely can't miss the game.and me, gimme a lappy and free wi-fi, then it should be more than enuff.

a new beginning

Alhamdulillah :)

pray that this will last forever, and we will love each other till the end of time.


pictures later!

a week.

a freaking week to go.omg omg.with nothing done yet. =.=

random

yesterday was eventful. joined them to MSSM event at Stadium Ipoh as the school reserved a booth there. yes, u read me right.a booth selling various kind of things u never imagine.hehe.so there goes my Sunday, well,oceans of people at the stadium either watching games or looking for computer stuffs (PIKOM pcfair that is), sweating my ___, and yeah, had a hilarious time giggling over all sort of things. hahah. whatever =_=

and oh did i tell u we (shu, izza, ju and me) went to shah alam on wesak day?okay it was the day before actually.had a good time at i-city and a good rest at shu's brother&sis-in-law's house (thanks!) before moving on to ikea the day after.heheh.okay, hanging-out before somebody's getting married (me!huhu) was what they said.hmm hmm.and, did u know the best bestest everrr chocolate moist cake can be found at petronas seksyen 7? when i say it's sooo yummeh u gotta believe me.now go and take a bite.hmm.sekarang dah terbayang-bayang.cis.

as a paper freak myself, i bought moof fancy papers at MPH with various prints.hahah!can't get enuff of them!i'll post the piccas later on okay?

to reward myself on the very teacher's day for the year 2011, i bought Orhan Pamuk's museum of innocence.been hooked up after khalil hosseini's two books. getting more mature am i?i mean, no more where rainbows end of all sort.for the time being i just love the words and expressions of these Pakistani, bringing myself into their world, ah, how good it could be. (wonder what will i buy on 2020's teachers day.haha)

a bit on the wedding preps, well, nothing much can be done till i get home.anyhoo, need to visit famous amos before hitting the road back and yes, find a pair or two of proper pyjamas. never had one since my pre-degree year. haha.if my mom knows this, i'll be dead.kihkih.all these while i just have those long-johns and t-shirts in the closet which i could wear day or night. see, i'm very flexible u know.hahaha.tp nk pakai long-johns ke kat rumah PIL?better find one before a long tazkirah.heheh.

oh and, creme de la creme of this post would be the experience of distributing those wedding invites to collegues! heheh.i was blushing all day long.never thought it would be this challenging.hmm hmm.well, got it done on friday 20th of May, approximately 2 weeks before the big day itself.

okay that's all.more updates later on.with pictures i promise.

omg, it's 9 days to go!

happy teacher's day to my former teachers!

it was teacher's day last monday.and so much of being a teacher myself, it was my former teachers who came across my mind on that very day.

i didn't go to any kindy.that was, believe me, a pathetic memory.when everybody proudly shows their kindy graduation picture (read: a kid with a roll of certificate and mortar-board, together with forced-to-be-photographed kind of expression), sigh, i would be so effing jealous. 

not until i realize, my teacher father knows best. he enrolled me to standard one when when i was six, just that he knew i was ready for formal education.just that he realized i was in hunger of knowledge.just when he saw me falling asleep with pencil and papers most of the time.just because he was aware that it was the best time to expose me with authentic experience in the classroom so my real 7-year-old standard one (which came a year later) wouldn't be so hard. yes, a teacher knows best and what has made it better, he's my own abah.

but well, there's not so much that i remember of my pre-school day except of i wasn't honoured as the best student in the class eventhough i scored full marks for most of the subject.haha.bet my name wasn't registered at all, so give way to real students pls!hihi.and i don't remember much about the teachers, maybe because of well, not a real student :P

standard one back in the 90s was quite different from what it is today. i was placed in 1 Mawar, Sekolah kebangsaan Long Gafar, Kota Bharu on the first day in school that year.but hey, felt kinda 'otai' already coz i've been there for the whole year before. just that the friends were different and, yes, so was the class teacher. she was somehow a very sweet young lady with a character i must say, which made me adore her the first time i stepped into 1 Mawar. She's Puan Haslina bt Hassan, the English teacher. her creativity amazed me up until now.well, a make-believe grocery corner in the class, can you imagine that? together with other extra exciting activities for the whole year. oh, if only i can see her today, i know, i will thank her a million for inspiring me to be what i am today, an English teacher, just like her.

and so, those years in primary school was full of unforgettable memory of kind

teachers.Allahyarhamah  Pn Hasnah (al-fatihah), the BM teacher of 3 Mawar who was so motherly i was so eager to go to school because of her.Pn. Juriah, Encik khalid, Ustazah Salina, to name a few (sbnarnye byk dah lupe.huhu), were the people who were responsible for my straight As Upsr result.haha..well our batch scored the best actually that year with 40++ students got straight As. bravo dear teachers :)

then the journey continued in Sekolah Menengah Sains Tengku Muhammad Faris Petra, Pengkalan Chepa, where i spent my day and night for five years. if it was not because of the teachers, how could i survive, how could we survive, without our parents. placed in 1 Gamma, my form teacher Pn. Zarinah took great care of her students. she even gave us presents on our birthdays.i still remember the Yellow-inked pen from her on my birthday month, August, together with Aidy Irman. you know, we would pay attention class just for the sake of fearing not to be getting present on our birthday.just cool, eyh?and so i love 1 gratitude (english set class), living skill class..and all. i had teacher Nik Fauziah teaching me English language when i was form 3, Pn. Aidah, (living skills), Pn. Jizah (BM), Pn. Wan Faizah (Geography), Miss Tan (History), Ust Mukhatar (Agama), Ustzh Noraziah (arabic), Allahyarham En. Wan Shamsuddin (science) and my maths teacher the PK hem at that time i couldn't recall his name somehow.those who made me leap forward in my studies esp on PMR result itself with another straight As. that's another story, coz not getting straight A is weird enough back then in faris Petra, so nothing to be proud of actually. 

but my most favourite teacher of all in Faris Petra should be ust Azahari Ibrahim (rindu gilo) the think-out-of-the-box teacher who would always knock our heads (physically and literally) and Pn. Aidah for sure.the physic teacher Pn. Aminah (who also my mentor), Pn. Hjh Faridah, who was so caring she even cared about my maths marks tho she was teaching me BM.i owe her a lot really, tho i was some kind of rebel back then :( , and few other whose name are just not there in my mind right now.hukhuk.the five year in faris ended quite quickly.poor spm result?that was my fault.haha.i left faris petra with a big lump in my heart.coz i know this one teacher, whom i (well it's we) detest so much during our days there, was actually the one who has made huge sacrifice for us.she was our warden, Cikgu Paridah.and being a warden myself right now, i know exactly her feeling, to take care of all of us.(tp dulu2 xde saket2 pegi spital mengade2 mlm2, tipu2 mc and all).haha! so if now the students want to pretend and make tantrums, please just don't coz i've been there and done that.

they were my teachers.they were the people who taught me to be a person.thank wouldn't be enough.no presents worth enough.guess a prayer after each solat should be my best gift afterall.

anyways,

to my teachers of SKLG, Faris-Petra, lecturers of Uitm Kampus Kuantan (Bukit Sekilau-where i had my pre-degree done), lecturers of Kampus Intec-Uitm Seksyen 17(the tesl lecturers) and last but not least to my parents,

SELAMAT HARI GURU!

to cikgu azemi, thanks & keep up with the blog for ex- Farisians coz we miss school so much!

oh have u seen the advertisement? the one with,

"oh cikgu wan, oh cikgu wan, oh cikgu wan cikguku..

rupa cantik baju batik, oh cikgu wan cikgukuuuu"

haha!

(how lucky i am if my students would pray for me once if not always.hmm..)

fast five.

just got back from watching fast five.tell u, dat was sure a brilliant one.now go watch urself then u'll believe me.hehe.

just another one

ugh.

poor toothless.another scrath from the garage pole, i won't forgive myself.hukhuk.

of cards and invitations

how good it is if i can fly home right now.

 

it was me who had to collect our courier that day and see, this is the result of my impatience.heheh.i rummaged the box right away in the car in front of kangaroo office.well, the cards turned out just the way i want them to be, plain and simple! thanks mr. F! but now, it's bothering me on when should be the right time to distribute those cards. i have no idea, really. i dun want to do it too soon coz i'm kinda shy.haha.so when?when?when?

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i dunno.but everything really needs to be reorganized. with him having a new working environment, different weekends (sigh) and absolutely my never ending saturday job. dunno how we're gonna get through.lets just pray that the road won't be bumpy and winding.long distance relationship is really killing, especially when u are far in the west while the partner is at the hometown, on the east.sigh sigh double sigh. but being reminded of this new post is the best option for now, having him as a gov servant, i wish i will get through. i wish we will get through. plus, he can catch up with the business at kelantan, which is good enough.Level 8 husm during the day and the printing & advertisement office during the night surely gonna take a toll on him. duhh..i couldn't agree more, that people can plan, but  Allah always has the best decision. and lets pray that the next decision will be me working at kelantan, sooner. Amin.

weekend schmeekend

back in teluk intan.sigh!

reached bandar baru teluk intan at 6.15 this morning and had a friend fetched me at the terminal.thanks dear!

so there it was, another day at school which was nonsensically boring with tonnes of works waiting to be done. i was dreaming for bed, but not before having warden's duty in the afternoon that i can get a short nap.sigh.went out to TF in the evening for some groceries that i decided to cook (!) the whole month.hehe.we'll see..we'll see..

approximately 22 days before school holiday, so i wish i can survive this.well, am now at pejabat warden, have to be on duty, as always. just that i am all alone right now coz the students are having sketch competition at the foyer.so might as well fulfill this me-time with something worthwhile.hmmm.

i am thinking of having rsvp posted in facebook but truthfully kinda detest the idea. maybe i should just select few close friends and request for their address by message.and i can mail the invi cards later on.yes cards are here!!finally..the artwork has been successfully done by the designer (ehemmm) and xprint has done their part successfully just that kangaroo courier made things became haywire. i even went to pick up the box at the kangaroo office at jalan sri cemerlang by myself. hmm you know, it's just a simple wimple kind of card (the way i love it.haha) but well, it's the sentimental value that counts, right? i even literally forced him to remove the wedding band picture on the frontal view of the card which he has put so much effort in cropping it beforehand.hehe.

on top of all my family has finally started the invitations by going to his side first.that's kind of adat people say.went there on Monday evening, (6.00 pm that was!) coz we've been waiting for my eldest brother to come back from work.first i thought i could just go with umi after settling the hiv test that morning,rupenye x boleh.haha.kena pergi bersame2 org2 dewasa rupenye.cisss.well, again..adatttt (ppffftt).haha.anyways, that has lighten the heart a bit.so done there :)

the one that has not been done yet is legal form! the imam went to thailand for few days (boleh?) so had to wait for him to come back then only we can submit the form.btway, i haven't have passport size picture of myself yet.hehe.matilaa kena marah lepas ni.promised abah that i will mail the pictures later on.tp malas la pulak nk pegi post-office.hukhuk.gonna clear that one tmrw if not, xboleh kawin,haha.

haih.nak balik.ok rephrase..nk balik kat bilik and tdo!it's 11 and i am sleepy weepy -_-"

wordless wednesday #2

wordless wednesday

of everything

home!

poor mr.F, he had to drive approx 20 hrs on friday which he went to fetch me in teluk intan, had some last minute shopping at ikano, and headed off to kelantan.(he's been such an angel so he deserves this).we arrived pasir tumboh on saturday 5.15 am after being on the road the whole night, and yes,he drove all the way.how can't i love him dearly now.hukhuk

settled few things on saturday, house decluttering that was!sigh, but yay, i finally found my pre-wedding course certificate!went to tesco for some groceries on the night right after my family leave for terengganu to visit a relative.the rascals tagged along to tesco which was fun coz it has been so long since i pamper them with books and toys :)

sunday was blissful.sent lil sis to school for she had extra-class to attend and went out with mr.F and his mom for some shopping. he came to fetch me at 11.00 am, went shopping, zohor and asar prayer at Masjid Negeri, went back to his home as he needed to settle the legal form for his side before handing it out to me.waited for him there, had chit-chats with his mom and sis, and soon after maghrib we head off again to settle the documents regarding his new post in usm.had late dinner at juara ikan bakar (yum!) and there it was..home after a-whole-day outing.

and as of today, i woke up early coz i've been meaning to settle my hiv test at Klinik Kesihatan Kubang Kerian.crowded, as always, resulting in long queue before being called into the room.tell you the m.a was really friendly and talkative i wanna puke.haha.nevermind..as it was only 2,3 minutes after that the result was out and i dashed out from the room in no minute with a precious white envelope in hand.hehe.

gonna settle all the legal particulars today and fetch the cards too! (kalau dah siap) hmm hmm

alright, oh yes, hope everything runs smoothly for you today mister!

..

Alhamdulillah..

Praise be to Allah..the most merciful.

ramblings

well, 

whatta peaceful night tonite.

after working for 8 saturdays in a row, finally, i  hereby declare myself, FREE this weekend! hmm..just yet. coz still, need to go to KL on sunday, chaperoning the students to International Book Fair in PWTC that gonna take a day full. anywaysss..it's better that way.at least, a lil getaway can cure the heart a bit.and to KL that is, which lighten up the mind coz i'm really looking forward to a lil hustle and bustle, different view of what we have in teluk intan everyday. and the fact that i haven't purchased any books yet this year, a visit to bookfair is just a savior! err..did i mention that i've come accross this B2B blog who has books & english novels as hantaran?Oooh so envious of her!!if only and only if i can have it that way..i'll sure be the happiest bride in the world!

ok since tmrw is a no working day, (well we supposed to have replacement school tmrw but we need to be the host of lodging for all netball players of the state-level competittion.so all students were released to go back home and that means no students, no school lah tmrw.hukhuk.if not, jgn haraplahhh) i am planning to stay awake longer tonite maybe for lil chit chatting with the mister (which we haven't had for long) and wake up a late as i can everrr in my life! (see the exclamation mark?) and i'm gonna get the mind emptied of all school miscellaneous, chilling with a cup of a tea and a chic-lit on hands, and will definitely treat it as my weekend, not yours, fellas.hukhuk.

aaandd, by my weekend, i mean, i'm gonna sit down and think and think and think of the favors for the becoming event! ish. can we go to ikea and another place mister kind-hearted?oh thank you. :P

p/s: can't wait for next week!!!

grenade

the unchecked list.

can i have a dais like this?just like this.

wordless wednesday

=..=

i used to know exactly what i want for a wedding.not a grand or dramatically special one.but just a simple, serene day, with no hush and rush.a day when i can treat everybody a simple yet delicious meal, enough to fill an empty stomach. a day when i can welcome everybody to my parents' crib, showing them the place i loved the most, my growing up place, my comfort zone. a day when nobody will celebrate not critics.a day of a fresh beginning between me and my future life companion. it's not too much to expect of a day, right?

what has been bugging me lately is i am too paranoid of what people will have to say when things are not up to their expectations. sigh

don't get me wrong people, i love shopping for weddings, what more if it's my freaking own wedding.i want beautiful dais, ruffles, scallops, with ballons and candies everywhere. i want everything in pastels, i want rainbow coloured paper lanterns, i want costumized favor bags with my handwriting on it, i want crazy pricey hantarans, i want a dais an artist would die for,i want every beautiful thing on earth.i want everything!

but, there is always a but.

i have to be rational.i have to keep my feet on earth. spending so much is not my kind of thing when it comes to a day of celebration. what more important is the days ahead. how we're gonna sail through the rough journey, of how being weekend husband and wife would cost us a fortune, of how having two families at once is kinda threatening, with hari raya coming and all.haha.okay, detect paranoid there.

hmm..what i really wish for now, is, let us have it our own way.be it a fairytale, or a nightmare, bother not.i've had enough stress at workplace so i dun need one on my wedding day.

 bridezilla mode on, NOW!

haha!okay ignore me.stress much wanrajifah, huh?

gotta go.need to google 'cara-cara memasak gulai' =..=

ok,

3 of my friends yg akan kahwin bulan 6 ni dah post rsvp kat fb.all of them are farisians.(apekah sungguh pathetic xde kwn dr sumber lain?wuwu) who are scattered around malaysia.they all rsvp awal2 sbb takot nnt nak kena timing nak post kad ke eh?btway, nnt nk kena bilang btol2 sape yg nk kena post kad sbb aku adalah kedekut setem.60 cents?kad i pon x semahal tuuu.eh kad?fuu~

so persoalannya skrg ialah perlu ke..perlu keeee..i buat mcm tu jgk skrg?kalo lmbat2 nnt xde org nk dtg ke?cam poyo je post rsvp awal2.dahla xbest sbb nnt canopies pyramid je..bukan arabian.wpon dpt scallop yg dicite2kan iaitu gray.hehe.tapi ttp xbest sbb pyramidddddd!(tetibe salahkan canopy.motif?)aaaannd, ade ke org nak dtg? hahahaha (omaigod tetibe rase kesian kat diri sendiri.wuwu)

aaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnddd skali lagi..ye, mmg xleh post lg rsvp.sbb..nnt kalo dh post rsvp, org mesti bg address..pastu nnt kena la post kad..thennnn...nk post kad pastu tetibe...kad i mane siap lagiii..design pon belommm (smbil menjeling seseoranggg) hmmmm hmmmm.

marilah kita same2 membizi yee.

anyway, sbenarnye adalah tgh tibe2 takot memikirkan outcome dais nnt sbb bridal adalah sgt kampong (tempat dirahsiekan).haha.motif?sbb saket hati dah penat2 panjat tgga pegi Renjis then tutoppp plakk.haih.boleh x mention kat bwh tu bahawasenya mereka tutop aritu?hnshh hnsshh..pastu  hari lain pegi juefaizoll bridal ponnn tutop jgk kena appoinment bagai.ewah ewah..call xdpt, tapi pastu die call blk ckp "sorrylah, i ade event dgn SNP td.the whole week i akan ade kat sane je" tahu SNP tu ape?fuuu fuuuu..baiklah, pegi jelah makeup dgn krew-krew siti nur.haliza tuhh..i redhoo..lgpon i xde duit byk2.haha.kalo byk  duit pon baik i pegi melancong ke new zealand. =..= btway, setelah pegi survey 4,5 bridals dan berase kecewa, tepakse la pegi gak ke tempat dirahsiekan itu dan booking dlm mase 5 minit.hahaha.sorrylah encik, nasib u laa..wuwuwu~pastu skrg jadik risau plakkk.haih.rase mcm nnt nak balik gantung je cadar kat blakang kerusi.ermm..yg snails tu ke..mmmm....pastu amik2 gmba xde la nmpak i burok sgt berbanding snailsss tersebot.gud idea.gud idea.  T_T

ok bye.sorilah terpakse bace post mega mengarut nih.next time i'll post a more educational one. (bajet ramai peminat.hukhuk) ah apepon, gudnitessss people!

# baru tahu, my senior syairir rupenye kahwin dgn org jepun.hohhhh gila kentang.(smbil membayangkan betapa bestnye kahwin dgn japanese dan tinggal di negara jepun.hmmm hmmmm)

ok sekian entry tanpa motif.

lil' lingling

hari ni besday adlyn ling-ling darlinggg kesayangan!

 my two years old young (pls dun grow up) baby

cikji loves u so much syg sbb menjadi peminat tegar kete myvi hitam cikji yg tidak dicuci bertahun-tahun.hehe.

dudududu

i want it as simple as it can be.like the simplest ever.

(tapi org lain semua x setuju)

grrrrr

entry emosi

it's been one hell of bad time in school nowadays.

and when i'm stressed out, i'll burst.i tend to blame everyone, and definitely, the other half will be the one who'll listen to all those.then i won't be in good mood to talk.i've been bad.i feel mad.i nag.i disagree.oversensitive. i thought nobody would understand.i thought he won't understand.i refused.i claimed.i vented all the angers like mad.

and that definitely not a good start of everything. i hate working so much.after all, i don't have a feeling to be here anymore.indifferent.that is.

time to sort out my emotional quotients. and people, pls don't be that cruel.

kerja byk2 kuat2 pon, harga barang naik jugak. economic downturn like forever. what do we get in return?nothing kan?

sorry mister.

i'm flying without wings

i haven't done anything of the preparations.

talking bout preparations, that's the thing makes me stressful right now.i am scheduled to go back home this 30th April as the cards will be ready by then, so i can fetch em all together with:

1. settle all the Legal Forms (the MOST IMPORTANT thing kalau x xboleh kawin)

2. HIV test which kalau kahwin kat kelantan, HIV test x boleh buat kat tempat lain.

3. fittingsss >.<

4. cards distributions (bg list dekat my parents & ambik the ones yg nak post to kawan2)

5. confirm bridal pasal dais&decorations

6. confirm booking caterer&canopies.

7. kemas bridal chamber (yg xde rupa bilik pengantin lagi)

8. well, hantaran decorations yg belum beli ape-ape and x buat ape2 lagi.

9. favors hunting.

10. pre-wedding.

well, it'll be exactly one month before the actual date by then.kalau x balik masa tu bila lagiiii?sape yg nak settlekan semua nih?

ish, nak settle hal kawin pun susah.x kawin kanggggg

cruel kerja vs demanding personal

so..impossible..as they may seem.you got to fight, for every dream 

coz who's to know, which one you'll let got

would have made u complete..s

pathetic post

those were the days.spot me.

hahaha.pls la wanrajifah.tolong la jgn makan byk.annoying sungguh.mcmana laa bulih jd mcm skrg ni.wuwuwu T_T

days to go:

to all men out there

ok now it feels weird, at least for me to post something like this.but hey, this is a good one i suppose.must read.must read!

Andainya lelaki tahu..
Apabila seorang perempuan jatuh cinta,
lelaki itu tidak semestinya punya segalanya
tetapi lelaki itu adalah segalanya di hatinya.

Andainya lelaki tahu..
Apabila seorang perempuan itu mengalirkan air mata,
itu bukan bermakna dia lemah,
tetapi dia sedang mencari kekuatan
untuk terus tabah menyintai lelaki itu.

Andainya lelaki tahu..
Apabila seorang perempuan marah,
memang dia tidak mampu mengawal perasaannya
tapi percayalah, itulah maknanya
dia sangat mengambil berat dan menyayangi lelaki itu.

Lihat saja pasangan yang baru bercinta, mereka jarang bergaduh.
Tetapi percayalah semakin bertambah sayang mereka pada seseorang,
semakin pula banyak pertelingkahan yang berlaku.

Andainya lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan bercakap banyak,
dia tidak pernah bermaksud untuk membuat anda rimas,
tapi dia mahu lelaki mengenalinya dengan lebih dekat.

Andainya lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan berkata dia mahu anda berubah,
itu bukan bermakna dia tidak mahu menerima anda seadanya,
tetapi dia mahu menjadikan anda lebih baik,
bukan untuk dirinya,
tetapi untuk masa depan anda.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan cemburu dan tidak percayakan anda,
bukan bermakna dia tidak sayang..
tetapi dia terlalu sayangkan anda
dan masih menganggap anda anak kecil
yang masih memerlukan sepenuh perhatian.

Kadang2 dia terlalu risau sekiranya terlalu percaya,
anda akan mengkhianati kepercayaan yang diberi.
Naluri keibuannya sangat kuat.
Dia hanya mahukan yang terbaik untuk anda.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan merajuk,
jangan kata dia mengada-ngada.
Dia bukannya mahu dipujuk dengan wang ringgit
atau hadiah sedozen,
tetapi cukup dengan perhatian
yang boleh buat perempuan rasa dihargai.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan jarang mengatakan ‘i love u’,
itu tidak bermaksud dia tidak menyintai
tetapi dia mahu lelaki itu merasai sendiri cintanya,
bukan hanya hadir dari kata-kata
tetapi juga melalui bahasa tubuhnya.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan kata dia rindu sama kamu,
dia benar-benar maksudkannya.
Apabila berjauhan, bayanganmu akan sentiasa bermain di mata.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan kata lelaki lain itu lebih baik dari kamu,
jangan percaya kata-katanya
kerana dia hanya mahu menguji kamu.
Dia mahu melihat sejauh mana kamu sanggup menjadi yang terbaik di matanya.
Walaupun sebenarnya memang kamulah yang terbaik di hatinya.

Selagi dia dengan kamu, percayalah,
walaupun perempuan menganggap masih ramai lagi yang lebih baik di matanya
tetapi di hatinya, kamu tetap yang terbaik.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan menjadi degil,
dia bukan bermaksud untuk menjadi degil
tapi dia mahu melihat
sejauh mana lelaki itu mampu bersabar dengan kerenahnya.

Percayalah, hati perempuan itu sangat lembut.
Andai kena caranya,
jangan terkejut kalau akhirnya dia menukar fikirannya dalam masa sesaat.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Apabila perempuan berkata,
“tolong tinggalkan saya!”,
dia tidak bermaksud menyuruh anda pergi selamanya.
Dia hanya mahu menenangkan fikirannya sebentar saja.

Apabila dia kembali tenang,
percayalah dia akan mencari anda semula.
Itu tandanya dia benar-benar menyintai anda.
Perempuan sukar untuk mengawal perasaan.
Dia terlalu emosional.
Tapi dialah yang paling menyayangi anda
dan sangat sensitif dengan perubahan pada diri anda.

Andai lelaki tahu..
Sememangnya Allah menciptakan lelaki dan perempuan itu
dengan perbezaan yang tersendiri.
Tetapi sekiranya mereka saling memahami,
mereka akan saling melengkapi dan menyempurnakan.

Perempuan itu diciptakan oleh Allah indah sekali.
Di sebalik air matanya,
tersimpan seribu satu kekuatan
yang bakal menjadikan seorang lelaki itu merasa selamat bersamanya.

Biarpun zahirnya perempuan itu tampak lemah
tapi dia punya kekuatan tersendiri
yang bisa menggoncang dunia
dan mungkin bisa pula membuat lelaki menjadi lemah kerananya.

Jadi hargailah kehadiran seorang perempuan dalam hidup anda
kerana dia didatangkan bukan dengan kelemahan sahaja
tetapi dia juga ada kekuatan untuk menyokong anda
dan membuatkan hidup anda lebih sempurna.
Dialah yang bakal menjadi perempuan bekerjaya, isteri juga ibu
yang terbaik untuk anak2 anda.

taken from a friend's facebook.thanks efi!

this one is for the girls

i want rainbows in the rain
i want everything under the sun
i want to be as happy as one can be
i want friends.i want buddies.i want my girls.
now, that's what i really want.the teslians girls

feels like it's just yesterday we're apart.time has changed us, a lot, i gotta admit.it was so much fun whenever i was with u guys.still remember the birthday parties?okay not really party, but we tried our best to make surprises on each of us' birthday, right?we had it at the rented home, at mcD, kedai lilin (my favvy!), darul ehsan,anywhere!and, remember the day a morning class was cancelled, suria and cyeda made a run to the library for the sake of checking 'now showing' in the net?yes, we caught nine yards at Jusco bukit raja.well, i have forgotten what the story was about but still remember how we went there by a cab and of course the mall has just opened and that means we're early birds we got discounts on the tixs.

and the time nala suggested nandos for lunch me&lyd escaped a class, hop into the 70cents bus heading to SACC mall.aaand, remember kak marini and her merc?remember heading to kedai kopi tasik shah alam with four of us crammed in at the back seat?the midnight in Sunway pyramid watching charlie and the chocolate factory?remember how we crossed the highway for King-kong?

have u guys still remember hunting for educational CD as instructed by Miss Saliza?speaking of which kita selalu ponteng kelas dia sbb the night before xtdo sbb buat ape ntah.and what subject was that yg kita kena compile newspaper cuttings then sggop beli kertas double A mahal2 sbb nk suroh tebal and dpt markah byk?Adzura.ellier's class?miss J?my all time favvy mr.john greig?and oh, kieran.johnston for sure!well, shakespeare with his utmost fan uhdaya.banu..mdm.rosalind with her asian literature?mr.mahadi's creative writing class?oh well, mdm.salina and syntax!i ilove the sentence treess so much!and definitely other lecturers whom we'd just realized we love them once we stepped out from the front gate.

oh please dun remind me of our ramadhans there.the bazaar was just across the lane and there was time we're too busy with the ahem ahem thesis that our night was our day, our day was our night.hahah!you know, after iftar, everybody was asleep like sleeping soundly and got up just at 10pm to continue with neverending assignments and thesis and got back to sleep only after subuh?and how our room (me,cyeda n banj's) was midnite and urs (lyd,nala,suria's) was daylight?oh oh remember still the cat from the house next door?how we took turn to clean its poops in our balcony?hahahahahaha.

we've been thru so many dramas.(anyways baru teringat scene lidya hampir pengsan selepas menderma darah dan mengetuk pintu dgn lemah longlai sekali).ok, so many many many dramas.the good ones.the bittersweet ones.

but i wanna revisit those days :(

it's so boring to have a carrier.a carrier but no friends.money without friends.if only..if only..

random

random.random.

haven't gotta watch 'hantu kak limah balik rumah' tho i've got the dloaded version now.

seems like life has taken it's toll on me that spending time for a movie is like a crime already.you know, as if time is better be spent on something more important.like, tulis lesson plan ke, tdo ke, marah budak ke, mcm2.haih,seriously, i dun wanna be that creepy ol' warden with wrinkles all over the face, who lives alone or tghtr with a cat.hahah!mr.F, save me!

has been a spendthrift like a real one lately.-no comment (-_-")

feels bad that i can't get back home helping ummi decluttering the house :(

school is boring.and tiring.pfffttt!!

Adlyn!!cikji rindu.hehe.

O' huwaida, spill the good newsss pretty please! :)) i wanna see u so badly please please pray i won't be having courses during weekends again so i can hop into the bus seeing u, alright?

okay nak buat kerja.

~

Que sera-sera~

What ever will be will be

The future is not ours to see

Que sera-sera~

proud to be one of Faris product.and this has connected us with our beloved growing up sanctuary.thanks to cikgu Azemi.well, kiddos, you did it well, just the way Farisians do.so congratulations again!

and,

ish.

it's been quite long since the last time i poured some thoughts here.yes they might be silly thoughts but sometimes things like that can make me happy.hahah.alright, i tend to write more when i am stressed out.so the outcomes must be sickeningly silly at times.kuikui.

aaanyways, made it to kl last weekend for another hunt of barang-barang which ended up with me buying nothing.seriously i was kinda blur of choosing the most appropriate favors for the guests. just couldn't make up my mind, which was irritating because i've withdrew an amount of money purposely for favors! and believe me, once they got into my purse, they'll find their way out in just few seconds.wuwuwu.so dah x beli favors, habis la duit tuu pasni :( must must be strict and don't bother those shiny papers in the purse!huhu

akan tatapi..i was overjoyed because he bought me the 'albert einstein' figurine!haha..funny as it is.but seeing albert einstein holding up e=mc2 is just really mesmerizing.(gila.org nk kawin x kan beli benda mengarut-mengarut dan membazir ntahape2 mcmni).ngehngeh,nak buat mcmana..dah jatuh cinta kat encik albert einstein.wuwu.

aaand, finally pjoy's card has arrived! jeles2 kad die cantikkk omaigod.siap ade pink polkadot ribbon!mine?xtaula turn out mcmane.mengada nk simple xnak corak la xnak bunga la.rasanya pasni siap mesti rupa kad tuh mcm muka depan buku sekolah ataupon mcm manila kad yang berrtulisan cakar ayam kecik-kecik,simple sesimple mungkin mcm tahun 60 an and then pastu baru menyesal menangis air mata mengalir berhari-hari.huhuhu.whatever.and maybe lambat laaa lagi nak siap kad-kad tersebut.haha.i jemput uols kat fesbuk jelah okay.and buat cik lyd and cik suria yg nk pergi berholiday tuu, survey la ape2 yg best dan unik kat vietnam pastu kasi pos hadiah tersebut kat i ye..*imagine wajah penuh harapan aku mcm kucing kegemaran lidya dlm Shrek*.(ada hati nak hadiah konon.ceeeh!)haha.berangan.wayyy to go jeep.wayyyyyy to go.

tiba-tiba ada idea nk buat favors ape.tapi kena pegi ikea.mcmana nih?

geli plak membaca post berunsur nak kawin nih.dah dah.

dang!

seriously i'm getting tired and menyampah with all these.

i just wanna die and disappear.

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 hoho..as if la kannnnnnnnnn.xboleh die lagi.byk keje nk kena buat.bohoooooo!i am living to work.work.work.jadi patrick lagi bagos!

=.=

annoyed.

T_T

ok finally hari ni settle another two big things.

 the booked ones so far:

1. caterer for solemnization and reception: the same one as of our Eday.

2. canopies and such: Jaya Canopy.

3. dais: The bridal in front of smklg.haha lupa dh nama dia ape.

4. invi cards: Tree Image Advertising.(yg ni sbb kenal manager dia) :P

and as for the hantarans, i got my batik material and his batik shirt done today. so guess there's only kuehs, cakes and such are left to be attended to. have no worries of the decorations coz i'll definitely do the most simplest ones on earth.so that can be done in June.

so it'll be only favors to be worried of now.

and i hope the cards will be ready by end of April so i can settle with the distributions.

and i how i wish i'd never peeped into paper flower dais photos.damn.rasa mcm skrg jugak nk g kensellll reservation kat bridal tuh! and i will start making my own paper flowers from a ream of double A papers, then attached em to the wall!

omaigod,kenapa la kena kahwin kena buat macam2.

T_T