of gua musang and a grieving heart.

i have a lot of stories to scribble down. this new place, new rent house, new school, new environment, tell me why should i give them a miss? soon i'm gonna regret it for not pouring down my first thought and first impression of this new life. eveything is new and awkward for a start but i know, things will change to the better sooner!

well, just trying to be positive.

real thing is, i am missing teluk intan, and the friends there. i wonder if it will ever cross my mind one day regretting my very own decision to get transferred here.

i hope not.

it's hard but it happened.

i experienced a miscarriage on that fateful 14th January 2012. it was a 9 week + pregnancy and an August baby it should be. the pain felt most in the heart, not in the womb. after 7 months of marriage we welcomed our teeny weeny lil fetus in our very own way. with cakes and ballons and candles, so much fun! (tipu. truth is we had this kind of fight the night before haha). anyways,  Allah then decides it's not the right time yet for us. after few blood spots on the panties, followed by pain and aches, the doctor confirmed that it is no longer with us. to have it only for 9 weeks + is already a blessing for me. i couldn't thank Allah more for that. and i know, He'll give us one sooner, a cheeky cuddly handsome and smart one Insyaallah.

" His command, when He intends anything, is only to say to it: Be, so it is." 82, Yaa Seen.

gua musang

why oh why :-(

how can i say no to this when,

Virginia Woolf has once said;

"One cannot think well, love well, sleep well, if one has not dined well"

"There is only one success - to spend your life in your own way." - Christopher Morley

so i need this..

and this..the most..

7 th year

7 years of relationship with 7 months of marriage - Alhamdulillah..

:-)