hols!

after a long time of waiting, finally, the holiday is showing its smiley face.aha..dammiyt.i am blogging using a friend's lappy coz i didn't bring my lappy to school anymore.reason?let me keep it to myself only T_T hmm..neways, can't wait for the holiday!lotsa plans are prepared, hush, dunno if i can even attend to everything!hmph..of weddings, family days, reunions, haiya..this gonna be a hectic holiday i presume :P

and encik is coming this Thursday..aha.he quitted his whatsoever course so he will be able to make it here,and we'll be heading hometown together :) so kind lah u encik, i won't be able to repay u ever.even with kasih sayang.haha.

okay ada kelas.

toodles!

:)

of life and lesson @ dinnertime

my kambinghitam is back!hee..no lah, it didnt go anywhere pon..i just bg encik afzal pinjam as he had to attend an urgent course.2 days are like hell.i mish my blackie ridee aka kambing hitam so damn much!hee..no lah, i didn't mind encik afzal taking it for a while since i rarely guna pun.once in 2,3 days je.tu pon g 7E je.aha..

soon after he arrived, we went for dinner at T.I resthouse.food was quite good.. but a bit crowded.i dunno what people celebrating for.haih..slalu pegi petang x ramai org pun.mybe sbb malam people love to hangout.

anyways, i am not review the nite or the dinner or the crow.there's something dat encik afzal said made me like, oh dat's so true!hmm..okay, being 26 and with a proper job, he should be planning to tie the knot, or something nearer to dat.but out of a sudden he popped out a fact, dat i dun even dare to ask pun before this.hehe.yalah, about his feelings and everything, xkan la i nak tanye plak. nnt die ingat i nak ngorat die plak.hehe..

so he was like, "ji tau kan a.ja da break dgn *****?" aha..terkejut i.no, i didnt get surprised by the fact, tapi terkejut sbb yalah, who am i to listen to his inner thoughts and feelings kan.men tend to hide their own feeling, and considering myself ni as bukan siapa2 pun in his life, and we just know each other pun baru 2,3 weeks before,and he is well informed dat me and fadli (his little brother) are having something going on, i was surprised lah.ohoh, so there he goes.he talked bout relationships, marriages, and responsibilities.yeah, it should be capitalized, RESPONSIBILITIES.

i was like realized how much i spend my life worrying over stupid little tiny things and how those stupid little tiny things lah yg akan buat our life a worse place to live in.and they will destroy the beautiful life we should be having in the future.mind it relationship, or work related.the most important thing is, we understand our responsibilities, then everything will work out well and smoothly.hmphmm..i have many more to elaborate but seems like i have a huge responsibilty to attend to now, i'd better go.i'll continue later.see ya!

thanks mr afzal, u r my big bro.a garang and protective big bro :P

update 2

nih, cupcakes saye!
aha :P

i love handbag.get it?get it?
:P

other side.saya tetap sukaaa wpon messy.eh kan saya mmg messy?haha

so mister u can start ur savings now.hehe
:P

update 1

there was acara tukar-tukar hadiah on the day.i gave the pressie to
teacher Baljit, and she's such a sweet lady so i decided to give her this Tupperware brand lunch box.aha, actually dunno what to give for pressie.Tupperware pon tupperware lah.asalkan org yg menerimanya gembira T_T
it cost me only a few, as the box is only rm10 and the kit-kat s inside are only rm10 oso.the ribbon pon only rm3.90, and the card is only hand made.aha.kedekot.lain kali mesti xde org nak tukar hadiah dgn saye
T_T

see the card.eh blur plak.jap amik yg lain.

aha..sumat card macam nak bg kat budak2.huhu

low-cost pressie
T_T

days

an evening in teknik teluk intan..so then u noe how bored i am here!huhu..xah, luv this serene and peaceful days..when i can go blogging, and munching cookies, thinking of no other but love!aha..sumat aite?

crapcrappi

this monday is going to be Teacher's day when teachers are giving presents to teachers.logik?nvm, we're teaching with sincerity, hoping for no returns.

aha..tatau nak tulis ape.crap!

oh well, i'm sitting in the classroom, alone, at 6.30 pm. pak guard is eyeing me thru the half-opened window.oh takot!i'd better go back!huhu..

hmm..what will i do tonite?oh craapppp lagi.buhsannye!encik pls come faster.ur appearance is strongly needed! ini adalah arahan!

hee :P

the secret to the Secret

i rily want to go out of here, like when workload is jumbled up with personal life, life will be no life.haa..ape punye ayatlah.xkisahlah,malas nak delete pastu type balik.susah, xsuke buat mcm tu sbb dh selalu sgt buat last-last give up tanak tulis lagi.ohoh okay balik kepada topik, so yesterday i drove 45 mins to Manjung, to Giant Manjung to be exact, and come back without buying anything.haha..i can be like that sumtimes, saye bukan suka shopping beli bukan2.kalau beli pun nnt menyesal nak pukul diri sendiri so baik tak payah beli tapi ape point pergi kedai tapi x beli ape2 tapi apa salahnye atleast boleh exercise sambil jalan2 ditempat berekon oh bijaknye alasan :P

but stories wouldnt always end up well. last2 stopped by secret recipe bought myself 3 marvellous pieces of fatty cheesy sinfully delicious cakes.hohoh.forgive me encik Fadli, i promise after this i will do 83486 sit ups a day and i wont eat until the day of our marriage wic is 10 years more kan? okay, so dun worry i will be as thin as the A4 paper yg murah, bukan DoubleA punye sbb yg DoubleA tebal so i will be the murah one yg tidak berjenama.haha.

random fact: the pictas above has already explained evthg aite?aha..birthday is too long to go lah, i can't wait for the 3 pieces from u so i bought myself.huhu.jum2 dear, come here so we can eat this together.i will keep 'em in the fridge until u come, i promise :P eh eh rupenye da tggl 2 boxes, sape mkn lagi satu nih?haha..stupid escapism.danggg!

how gadgets can play a big role in ur life

dear gadgets,

why can't you treat me laike other friends that u have?
what have i done wrong that u keep making me feel like strangers?
hey, we've been together since i was 19 rite? (ugh late exposure) and from then on, i keep tolerating u as my BESTEST buddy.

why gadgets why??
i dun understand why are u being so cold towards me.
u keep making excuses to be away from me.

am i cruel gadgets?, tell me, tell me please! make me understand, make me comprehend all the troubles u faced when u r with me coz i can't stand it any longer!oh gadget baby, dun be like this,please, i am begging uuu..

so please understand gadgets, my life is awful without u T_T

(this note is deliberately written to my dear gadgets such as nokia handphones, lappy charger, mp4 player, digicam dan hatta peti ais sekalipon yg agak cold towards me nowadays T_T)

What The Flower*

and one more thing.

thet said the theme for teacher's day will be RED and BLACK wtf?

okay chill, but i dun have any piece of clothes colored red or blackie or anything similar to both.haiyaaa..or,

can i wear my car since it's black?

answer me!!!!!!!WTF*


aha tibe2 emo ok


T_T

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it's 17 days to go before the holiday comes.it's 23 days before my dear mister will show his presence in front of me with his shyly smile.ugh..23 days!whatcu expect mister? it's a long time, it's a loongg time..it's a loooongggg time!bohoooo..i mite grow stupid in dat period of time. T_T

talking bout holiday, sumthing caught up my mind.yeapyeap, haven't brought pressies for those fwens who are getting married dis holiday.okay, it's suziela (childhood fwen), adam razali, adyani ramli and their partners (faris bunnies), khairul,matzaid,kak maryam (smtti pepul) and sape lagi ek?oh..for encik nashiham,me and Fadli are going to grab it together :)) tapi nak beli ape eyh?

hmm..we'll see later ah, tapi quite wisau coz we hardly have time lah before the wedding as fadli is busy with the i dunno what software & computer science course.haihh..nvm, it's good for u mister so keep it okay and dun give up.(chey bagi org semangat, kite sndri bersemangat.huhu)

ahhh crap lah, dunno what to write anymore.plus my trip to giant today also is quite a frustrating one ah.dun wanna talk about it.it's just same ol'thing.haih.

btway, oh oh sedey bila lalu Oldtown WC!
mish u lah mister!

xoxo!

!

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it's 17 days to go!

morning!

guess what??

it's sumthing i didn't wish to happen

but it just happened,

completely to ruin my /sudah-memang-bad/ day

huhu
yeap
woke up super late todayy..
ugh!
shess..mcmana boleh lmbt bgn?

it must be because of the late phone call (hehe nak salahkan phonecall, pdhal da tejage kul 6 tapi pemalas-pemalas guling-guling tibe2 da kul 7!dangg!!)so there i go, kelam kabut lari-lari mandi pakai baju siap-siap masuk lappy dlm bag and walk on wings to school.aha!

okaylah nak buat kerja pula enough enough bloghopping no goooood :P

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Hujan
aku mahu kau tahu

Di sudut termenung jauh
Mengenangkan nasib kita
Kita miliki separuh
Berbentuk hati cinta namanya

Walau kau jauh
Ku sentiasa menunggumu
Inginku imbas kembali memori
Walau kau jauh
Ku berjanji kan terus tunggu
Dipisah lautan biru
Ku mahu kau tahu
Aku kan terus menunggu
[ Ku Mahu Kau Tahu lyric found on www.lirik.tv ]

Jaga benar gambarku dalam telefon bimbitmu
Jangan pernah sekali kau buang
Seperti cinta ini yang terbuku
Akan bersemi jua

(chorus)

Terus menunggu
Kita kan bersatu
Terus menunggu
Ku mahu kau tahu

* aha..dis is just what keeps playing in my mind all day long.thanksalot mister!u rily noe what is right on the right time :))

informal letter

dear,
i noe what's in your heart..
but i can't help myself from whining.
i noe rezeki comes from the way i live now so i shall not whine.
i shall not whine as Allah put the best for me, coz He knows the best.
and i noe dear, u have been worrying so much.
thanks for being so understanding, despite of all ur troubles and everything that matters.though u are far u rily noe how to make sure we are near. T_T words should never describe how much i appreciate all that u have done.


tq anyways..

:(

today, i cried.


out of nothing.


maybe i was feeling so lonely.how i realized that i am tired of being alone.i can hear loud banging, yelling, laughing and cheeky giggles from the outside.yet i feel alone.completely lonely.i dunno when will this come to an end.i need a companion. i couldn't talk to Fadli on phone.i become so sensitive and it's so easy for me to breakdown.i dun wanna whine to him anymore. i am afraid he will grow tired of my silly whines.but i need someone to talk to.

it's so stressful living days like today.waking up for no purpose.staring blankly at the idiot box.counting sheep before sleep..oh dat's just as silly as i could ever done.i want an end to this.

i wanna go off.but i have nowhere to go.pepul might say that i can spend my time reading, doing laundries, chit chatting with little students or at least, sleep.yearight.i've been doing dat for almost a year.and i am scared of the fact that i am going to live like dis 3,4,5 years more.i'd rather die.

it's not dat i want to get married or doing sumthing similar to dat. neither me is ready for such great commitment.all i need is sumbody who understands me, who can spend time doing things we love together.tough luck though, i am fated to be alone.

i know, all i have to do right now is be patient.he will come and save me in any time.dat's all i have to believe, and trust.

nobody would understand me.and if it's ever so, nothing could ever be done.just hoping that time will fix everything.



so there i was,

crystal drops rolling down my cheeks,

as i hide myself under the blanket.

on a sunny sunday afternoon.

so this is the most precious in life, ever.

no words can ever describe, how much have u done umi.
i luv u more, more than i could ever luv anyone else.
i owe u this life

Pn. Hjh Faridah bt Othman
i am proud to have u as my mom!

# happie mothers' day to all mothers in the world..and ohya, esp to Pn. Zaharah bt Hassan too :)) we are all too lucky, indeed!

when you are gone

Gone are the days when we were jumping and hopping round the greenish carpeted court, bursting the masculine spirit inside us, kicking the unfortunate round ball, sweating like nobody's business, and laughing our heart out..oh chill.hoh..how i mish the good old days.dammiyt.the difference now is too vast.yalah..whatever.bygones are bygones.korang sile menangis ye tgk gmbar ini kerana terkenangkan zaman muda bermain futsal dengan riang gembira walaupon keje shakespeare xsiap dan miss saliza garang nak mampos akan marah klau kite ponteng kelas die keesokan harinya kerana penat.aha..tapi aku punye gmba xclear.yg dlm pc lidya clear kot tapi die tanak bagi kat aku.hoho.ok, enjoy d pictas!

left to right: piya,peed,cuya,jeep,iramok!

nih gmba tekumpol2 so xleh nk define siapa anda.huhu.

oh2 mcm hebat tapi bukan reti ponnn haha

main futsal ke bergaduh nih?

"sudahlaa..tanak ah main dgn korangg" kata piya.hehe.

rajen2 sile lah ke sports planet shah alam ye.
aha, mcm best padahal tak pon.
huhu

~:~

dear diary,

i luv the weekend.

tu saje.haha..



tapi sekembali dari weekend saya adalah byk keje yg teramat.

haihhh..

life is cruel!